growing with traffic lights

"you know you make me wanna shout kick my heels up and shout

come on now.....

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh"

what can i say?

lawd a massy

what can i say?

You know life sometimes throws some things at you

in some odd ways.

This week has been one that i know i wont forget,

loads of highs

and one low....

... but that low hurts like shit............

This week i went on a journey,

that journey,

besides being an actual one

was more physical and unfortunately emotional.

The worst part of that journey was the infamous stop sign.

You know there are three colours that come from a traffic light:

GREEN - where you proceed carefully.

AMBER- where you speed up hahh) actually you slow down and prepare for a stop.

RED- where you stop right where you are.

Somehow that colour reared its ugly assed head today,

total sad face on my part.

But I found out something about myself

and that can be linked to the amber

in that, instead of me slowing down ... you know for the eventual stop,

i kindda sped up

and you know what?

in a weird way it created an indirect green

but the twisted part is that

time, space and circumstance has created a red.

I look back now with a bit of .....................

you can put any emotion there i'm sure at one point in time i felt it (make me laugh).

sometimes growing up means

taking a chance

living in the moment

as well as pausing every once in a while to say

"self, i love you"

i loved this week

why?

Mellie grew the heck up