stepping on the broken branch

Ive tried for years to nit pick all aspects of my life
I seem to have develop the tendency to shut people out
... or even seek solace in myself.
I have found that it is not so easy to seem or even to be
disattached from the world
now I find myself again in a gridlock.. one with myself
where twisted emotions cause my brain to run overtime.
there is a certain someone
.. well aren't you confident this is about you!!
years have been past between us
and still nothing is for sure
I look back as the chill of the Autumn breeze
flutters the leaves and my insecurities.
I've taken the steps but still something is holding me back
what is it?
maybe its the cloud that covers what I want to know and what you are willing to share.
maybe it would be best if I look away...
I miss you