weakened state

I am lost
I feel used and battered... not in a physical sense but emotionally.
I've failed and have allowed myself to become a statistic a number that can be called and willingly like a lamb to the slaughterhouse I go.
I can't do it anymore
I too need support in more than one ways
where is my "go" to person?
who is available... as usual no one

"even through tears

a smile can break the barrier of any sadness,

so smile and know that you are loved."

2006. Melissa Moncrieffe

anthem

She was lost in so many different ways

Out in the darkness with no guide

I know the cost of a losing hand

There but for the Grace of God go I

I found heaven on earth

You were my last, my first

And then I hear this voice inside

Ave Maria

I've been alone

When I'm surrounded by friends

How could the silence be so loud

But I still go home knowing that I've got you

There's only us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on earth

You are my hunger, my thirst

I always hear this voice inside

Singing Ave Maria

Sometimes love can come and pass you by

While you're busy making plans

Suddenly hit you and then you realize

It's out of your hands, baby you got to understand

You are my heaven on earth

You are my last, my first

And then I hear this voice inside

Ave Maria

Ave Maria

Ave Maria

2008. Beyonce Knowles

your baby is coming
wink wink

all who know me can say without a shadow of a doubt. "yeah dat gyal hates commitment"
lately Im finding myself at a roadblock. im searching for that special person..maybe I have found him, maybe I havent. I think that my hate of "physicality" is that even a word? well it is now has forced me to eradicate any prospects of a relationship. I tend to be comfortable with the randon trysts.
in the last two weeks I have been asked out on about 4 dates. to tell the truth I give these guys props for even approaching me because I know and they know that it was not going to be happening.
so off to the land of frozen asses
make sure to walk with lube and tequilla
whooooooooooo
sounds like fun
as the song rightly says
tequilla makes my clothes fall off!!!