I said brrr its cold in here

so here we go again
having another turn at a potential crisis
makes you think im a sucker for unhappiness right?
well i agree with you
hehehe
i figure someone has to be that person no
so i was thinking what is lil ole me
tropical bunny ( big bunny to be exact) doing flitting off to North Carolina?
seems like a recipe for disaster freezer style
got an invite for Montana as well
what can I say, the christmas vibes blow and there WILL be snow and what will poor Mellie do then. She'll freeze her ass off
maybe get some laughs and they'll ship her off to thaw

butterfly wings

what does your sign have to do with compatability?

Daily Overview: November 16, 2008
PISCES
February 19-March 20
Your emotional state is crystal clear now and most likely quite positive! It's a great day to share your feelings with those closest to you, through words, body language or a simple smile.
wow that makes me feel like.....
kindda makes me rush to the phone to call... whats their face again
ahh screw it all!!!!!

so recently I have decided to to be more open minded... you know stop turning my nose up at the crudest of us all. as a result of that decision, I am finding myself in situations or within
earshot of situations that frankly I would be like
what the heck?
today amidst the rain a woman in HWT walks out shouting
"pat yu front if u ave a man"
well lawd u know my situation .. no man heheh
so u know wha neva get pat
buttu... can you spell it?

so a couple weeks ago, maybe a month or two I kindda met a guy on the bus. he asked for my number and I was like if we're ever in this situation again ( that is us SITTING besides each other I would)... and he bought that???
if I had told myself that even I would slap myself.
why in who knows who would dis man feel I "wanna know him betta"
anyway
dis mawning lawd before cock start crowing ( that is my foot reaching in the bus) dis man wid him eager beaver self shout out from the back...
"you can sit next to me" what a stress inna di early morning
now people I didnt mean to say what I did, but out of shock and disgust it sort of slipped out
I said, why would I want to sit next to you? what am I to gain except a flipping headache?
now as I said ...it slipped out
so on the journey went
only fi inna the hwt square and dis man aguh tell mi bout mi embarass him
kiss teet to rass
Lord why only losers, stalkers, morons and UGLY men are attracted to me?
are my sins greater than everyone elses'?
shit man
why would I have wanted to sit beside a guy who is going to spend the entire journey telling me how much he "checks' for me.... what he needs to do is give me a flipping "cheque" that would make more sense to me

and a leap for mankind

I don't know many people who can say... damn I caused that shit
lol
funny thing happened on my way to hell... snaps I got saved
saved with the mental image of one car humping the back of another...
yeah.
okay so its not a funny situation no no its really not
ok Im being serious
heck I'm lying
this is funny!!!
alright you know its weird how sometimes random things makes you shift gears with your thinking.
I got ready for work... man I was dreading it.
uh hum ...and so making my way on the road I hear the voice...
hey sexy browning looking fine.. 'fore i could come up with a rolled eye (yeah u know what I mean)
another resounding sound was heard
CRASH!!!!!!!!
then I heard one of the likke man dem u see pon the road ( yuh know the one dem u kindda ignore and wish wasnt there?)
fucka dey... deh a look omman him rass now
browning u looking real neat though...
with that I continued on my way.... I knew it was the Lord giving me a reason to smile cause when I reach the flipping hell hole
the damn gate was locked ( you know how messed up it is when you actually have a key to open the rass place and the gateway to pleasure is locked)
I was PISSED as hell
I can tell you
the sounds of crashing throughout the day definately made a smile creep slowly upon my face
vrrrooom hear the sounds on money leaving the bank...
guess who's laughing
hell yeah
ME!!!!!!!!!

lost in translation

yeah right

stepping on the broken branch

Ive tried for years to nit pick all aspects of my life
I seem to have develop the tendency to shut people out
... or even seek solace in myself.
I have found that it is not so easy to seem or even to be
disattached from the world
now I find myself again in a gridlock.. one with myself
where twisted emotions cause my brain to run overtime.
there is a certain someone
.. well aren't you confident this is about you!!
years have been past between us
and still nothing is for sure
I look back as the chill of the Autumn breeze
flutters the leaves and my insecurities.
I've taken the steps but still something is holding me back
what is it?
maybe its the cloud that covers what I want to know and what you are willing to share.
maybe it would be best if I look away...
I miss you